Some more things I made.

that’s pretty much how it went down.

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My brain has been doing some strange things to me lately. I’ve had a few extremely vivid dreams - not just visually, but emotionally. Events replayed, things I’d like to think I’ve moved past. Suddenly it’s like I’m there again, before the bad stuff happened, and for a moment I appreaciate it. Then I realise it’s not real and the moment is passing, and I go through the pain of loss again. In my sleep it feels like I’m screaming.
When it happened - the things, not the dream - I wasn’t the same. Some good changes from adapting and learning, but some odd things, too. I would flinch violently when people touched me, even lightly, even when I saw it coming. I would have vivid, horrifying nightmares. I would be emotionally deadpan for days at a time. I read they’re symptoms of PTSD. I still flinch.





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If you understand the expressions to ‘burn at the stake’, to ‘hold his feet to the fire’, to ‘break a butterfly on the wheel’, to ‘be racked with pain’, to be ‘drawn and quartered’, to disembowel, to flay, to press, the thumbscrew, the garrote, a slow burn, and the iron maiden … you are familiar with a fraction of the ways that heretics were brutalized during the Middle Ages and early modern period.
Steven Pinker, The Better Angels of Our Nature


Airi Suzumura,鈴村あいり

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I am completely convinced that the Catholic Church is an international fascist kleptocracy which transcends national boundaries and relies on brainwashing and exploitation of the disadvantaged as it’s key form of propagation.
It’s teachings are designed to wipe out individuality and spirituality, replacing them with groupthink, empty ritual, and subordination to hierarchies of power and a cult of personality.
It is a crime syndicate stretching over more time and space than any other - and has a country of its own, from which it gives dictates of the Absolute Truth to its zealots.

Death Drive, ego, religion, existentialism

Religion exists among self-aware beings as a pathological response to the existential crisis of being - ie; the denial of death. This leads to hedonism and the worship of power. All monotheistic moral systems are the worship of power and hubris. Religious power is always maintained with gross excesses of avarice and greed. The denial of death, resulting in hedonism and power-worship, not surprisingly, results in the Death Drive.

The Death Drive is an inherent irony of being - one denies death, and denies an aspect of self. When this aspect of self is denied, it results in indulgence in behaviour which is self-destructive. The deepest existential revelations you can have - that is to say, the realisation at the core of ‘being’ itself - is to realise and truly absorb the fact that 1) you are going to die, and 2) nothing you think can make you happy will every make you happy, because the moment you get what you think you want, you realise your true desire is unfulfilled and you immediately have new wants, new desires.

In this way, Zen Buddhism is the closest religion to true spirituality. It is why the Dalai Lama says that Buddhism has to accept the findings of science - because true spirituality does not need to deny reality to maintain or perpetuate itself.
Ego and consumerism and materialism are the modern embodiments of the Death Drive. Loss of ego is the acceptance of point one above. Rejection of material possessions is an acceptance of point two.

All prophets espouse these views in their core teachings, but these teachings are warped by worldly imbeciles who want to propagate their childish, supernatural gods.
Even Jesus himself in the bible says “My god, my god, why have you forsaken me?” - he is actually reflecting on something deeply spiritual (yet Jesus was supposedly alone at this point - so who could have reported on it? Perhaps someone who understood the passage’s true meaning). He is essentially saying “God is dead”, and no-one is going to save us.
There are two main good teachings to be gotten from the bible. 1) The snake in Genesis overthrows a monstrous dictator by freeing people and giving them knowledge - the meaning of this, read by an enlightened person, is obvious, but for the person who worships power as goodness, the tyrant is to be exalted. 2) God is dead.

(Others are 1) The Good Samaritan: a person does not have to be religious to be moral, and 2) love your neighbour as you love yourself - which can be read as a call to pacifism, or to empathy with the ‘self-ness’ that we all posses. But note that both pre-date Christianity, and do not require belief in the supernatural or in any god. Also, the fact that other historical sources suggest the existence of a Jesus-figure, but do not support miracle accounts, suggests that a Jesus-like character probably existed - but there is no reason whatsoever to believe in the supernatural or any provincial myths)

This should be understood in the context of the Jewish religion at the time. A prophet would have been killed quickly if they didn’t support the god of the time and region. A religion would not have gotten off the ground if it did not include many superstitions already believed by the masses. Any person with existential revelations would have their salient teachings reproduced through the filter of extant religious dogma.

People lower on the hierarchy of needs do not tend to have existential revelations because they are concerned with assuring their personal safety. Thus, they form rigid in-groups and out-groups. For them, the meaning of religion is in this form of socialisation. For educated people who do not have present and salient existential threats, the existential meaning of religions can be understood. That is, in crude terms, poor, uneducated people use religion pathologically to deny the ‘other’ and deny death, while wealthier, more educated people use religion only to socialise and do not place as much importance on outgroups, or hellfire or heaven - they are religious moderates.

I’m starting to think that people cannot be reasoned or rationalised out of their religion because religious belief stems from this deep existential dilemma - the denial of death, and the strong emotional states it provokes. People who do let their religious beliefs go are people who have already come to terms with the existential dilemma in some way - they find socialisation through non-religious groups (eschewing existential threats from out-groups), they get involved in hobbies (drawing on the creative Will, or libido, which I won’t get into here), or increase their socioeconomic standing such that they change position in the Hierarchy of Needs. Many get a strong sense of meaning in their life from their religion - it structures how their past history, present choices, and future options are perceived. The process of restructuring these is hard work - not just emotionally and psychologically, but physiologically - studies have actually shown that born-again Christians have signs of minor brain damage, possibly from the neurological restructuring involved.

Anyway, this was meant to be a two-line random thought post. This is the sort of stuff I’ve been thinking about since I watched Henry Rollins talk on Christian Existentialism, and Slavoj Zizek on Phsychoanalysis.